seeking the Truth
Le petit prince
chewypie
every cloud has a silver lining
this past thursday morning, i woke up on jlee’s couch, expecting another grumpy day. it was difficult to think positive because every possible little thing seemed to be going wrong, and i felt like things were only gonna get worse.
but then i realized that i was wrong. all the problems and concerns that had been bothering me for several days got fixed one by one. it was like christmas… better than christmas, actually! haha some sort of magic happened over night or something. even though it was raining and freezing cold, and my umbrella and warm jackets were all packed up in plastic bags, i somehow knew that everything would work out itself by the end of the day.
hopefully, i have already experienced enough troubles for this entire year, and rest of 2010 will be full of happiness and blessings. i definitely need to keep positive thoughts and focus on brighter future. after all, struggles mean progress.
thank God for his mighty power and love even when i doubted him. He teaches me something new everyday.
also, special thanks to everyone who housed me for the past few days!!!! :)
“ I have never been especially impressed by the heroics of people who are convinced they are about to change the world. I am more awed by those who struggle to make one small difference after another. ”
Ellen Goodman
home…?
i call my residence in chapel hill “my home” and that throws off some people. when i say i’m home, people ask, “uhh where do you live again?” or… “durham?” if they know me a little bit better.
this thanksgiving break was nice in a way. seeing many faces i haven’t seen in a while. also, it was extremely relaxing to simply eat and shop a lot.
but deep down inside, i am glad to be back at my place on stephens st. and sleep in my own bed. i was actually scared of being back in the reality and was worried of getting used to my crazy everyday life again. but then, as soon as anna and i got to have the usual sharing time of “our philosophies” on my bed, i knew everything was right.
i hope i can get used to my parents’ place as much. i’m actually looking forward to going back this winter. 3 more weeks, and then i will be on my way to real home. :)
thanksgiving dinner
breaking wishbone after thanksgiving dinner.
middle piece actually flew off, but i won by like 1nm.
주의 말씀 의지하여 깊은 곳에 그물 던져 오늘 그가 놀라운 일을 이루시는 것 보라
주의 말씀 의지하여 믿음으로 그물 던져 믿는 자에게 능치 못함없네
unexpected encouragement haha.. unexpected, but surely pleasant.
thank you for sending me the video. i guess i just need to pray more and remember that God does have purpose for everything.
lately, i’ve been very overwhelmed with the workload and sickness. i’m also very disappointed with myself in that i have very low expectations from myself.
so… i want to live my life in a way that is edifying for God and thought that God has a specific plan for me. however, not only is it difficult to commit myself to it, but i’m also starting to doubt my capability.
i don’t think i’m smart/strong/good enough.
ah it’s really hard to think positively, especially when i’m trying to work on a cloning project that’s basically impossible. meh i should get back to work. i’ll be more positive later… i promise.
uhhhh.....
- Anna:
- ughhhh we need to stop supporting each other's terrible philosophies
- Me:
- hmmm yea.. but like.. it really wouldnt work out
- Anna:
- "how do you know that"
- "you don't know what will happen in the future"
- (i'm quoting you)
“ The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out; the brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. ”
Randy Pausch
